2024-07-13 2024-07-14 12:06am, 12:31am, 12:45am, 12:58am 2024-10-20 we are so back, oh look our good friend #finesse is chillin' here. very nice. 2024-10-20 ~11:30 -> 1:39pm -s 2024-10-20 ~8:30 -> 10:30pm -s 2024-10-21 5:03pm, home -s 2024-10-21 7:27pm, switch to laptop -s, 7:40pm parsing @sym1e twt archive for markdown 2024-10-21 10:32pm, goodnight. -s. come home safely imane, i love you. 2024-10-22 8:47pm, ctrl + f Command; ~~no real writing today,~~ break. -s "Thematics / Abstract / Shortcuts" 2024-10-22 10:35pm, goodnight gotta prepare for my entire day of DEGENERACY tomorrow by contributing to society. -s. 2024-10-23 6:47 pm 2024-10-23 8:57 pm - #Phantom_Pain #Restless #Voyeur_Kink #How_Do_I_Expose #Pre-tension #Convolution #Cognitive_Distortion #Cognitive_Map #Internal_Strife #Shadowbox #Roleplay 2024-10-23 11:10pm, sleep. -s

Nightmares In Reality aka Sour Truths #LilyToast #SweetNSourPodcast #SweetNSour #LadyKiller #Real #Dry #Stoic #Fair #Vindicate #Crowd_Control #Segregate_By_Gender #LadyKiller #LilyPichu #imaneanys #Obfuscate #Solace_In_Drama

"Someone else's misfortune is my gain. I get to share my real feelings live, publicly." -Toast, a sexless night, probably. A very keen release from #Toast here, probably was bottled up, considering that live fetish applies to general feelings as well. They're just so fucking deranged, and entrenched in their abusive game, that they can't get out, nor do they want to. Opportunistic release. The world pities, just like a broken clock strikes twice. Time to pounce on that release, because it's not coming for a very long time.

JasonR? Nah.

Before I go to sleep, you, yourself can recognize this pattern. If there's ever been general drama in the streamer space, you betcha Toast is out there bitching and moaning about his own life. It's just it's real to him. Drama is drama. It's super common to have many-a-feelings, the difference is that it's someone else's and not yours. He just yoinks the energy, because that's his daily grind: inbred drama, turned to crime, abuse, disarray amongst his "friends."

Everybody needs to release, no less a public figure of  sorts. Especially when their voyeur kink persists. That means they also need emotional release at some point, specifically Toast. Maybe not so much Lily, she gets enough out of the Lady Killer stuff, that satisfies her. But Toast, no one satisfies Toast. He's an animal and he needs as much release as humanely possible. All avenues. He's dry, passive aggressive, totally fair, monotonous, abusive (performative) anger, (actually angry, but not? he is angry, just his real anger is much worse). Sex is the outlet for Toast's severe anger problems.

Meanwhile behind the scenes (and in front lol) with Lily he's incredibly dominant all the time. He's never not being dominant. He has no release. He's simply a one track anger master. Lily is the sex, almost exclusively controlling women for her own. She's straight though, she just loves the idea of controlling women. She's secure, insofar as she can do that. Because she's nobody without them. Toast is there to treat her like utter dogshit, I'm saying bottom the barrel shit. Anything JAV can cough up, match that, and worse. Vomitting, shitting, everything's on the table as far as these two are concerned + Jummy. Jummy is probably a pedophile or something at this point. Everything is on the table, especially with Jummy being a big ?. Bestiality, aka Animal abuse, everything.

later [[2024-10-23]] 11:21pm/11:23pm -s

#Jummy

#Toast - #Inadequate_Complex - #Insatiable - #Animal - #Predation_With_Intent_To_Kill - #Poison #Method_Poison #Food

Too cowardly to kill by hand - dagger. Would rather die with his cloak around him.

Depression? More like ⏲Suck and Fuck.

#miyoung #Toast #ToastLily

Ayooooooooooooooooooo.

Extended Cut 🐫 aka Mask On #Oops_The_Camera_Is_Low_Enough #Final_Frame #Fatal_Frame #Voyeur_Kink

"Oh my god, I just realized! ! !"

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Reinforcements Have Arrived. aka Mid Rift aka We're both wearing the same thing, what the fuck?

#Aria #induced #insecurity #microaggression | #match #idealization -> #devaluation #subconcious | #LadyKiller #calculation | #Innocence #Pristine #Misogyny #Implicit_Misandry

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Roleplay with (((⨑riends))) ⏳🐉🛌 -> ☕🍞 -> 🎂🎈🎊🎉 🎈-> 🎁🎁🎁🎁-> 😄☕🍞☣☕☣ ⚰⚰⚰⚰⚰⚰⚰⚰⚰⚰⚰⚰⚰⚰⚰⚰⚰⚰⚰⚰⚰⚰⚰⚰⚰⚰⚰⚰⚰⚰⚰⚰⚰⚰⚰⚰⚰⚰⚰⚰⚰⚰⚰⚰⚰⚰⚰⚰⚰⚰⚰⚰⚰⚰⚰⚰⚰⚰⚰⚰⚰⚰⚰⚰⚰⚰⚰⚰⚰⚰⚰⚰⚰⚰⚰⚰⚰⚰⚰⚰⚰⚰⚰⚰⚰⚰⚰⚰⚰⚰⚰⚰⚰⚰⚰⚰⚰⚰⚰⚰⚰⚰⚰⚰⚰⚰⚰⚰⚰⚰⚰⚰⚰⚰⚰⚰⚰⚰⚰⚰⚰⚰⚰⚰⚰⚰⚰⚰⚰⚰⚰⚰⚰⚰⚰⚰⚰⚰⚰⚰⚰⚰⚰⚰⚰⚰⚰⚰⚰⚰⚰⚰⚰⚰⚰⚰⚰⚰⚰⚰⚰⚰⚰⚰⚰⚰⚰⚰⚰⚰⚰⚰⚰⚰⚰⚰⚰⚰⚰⚰⚰⚰⚰⚰⚰⚰⚰

#Standard #Operating #Procedure #Practise #Makes #Perfect #All_In_A_Days_Work_Innit #Roleplay #LARP #DungeonsANDDragons #Bedroom_Play #Mirror #OfflineTV & #Friends #Acting #Gamification #Dice #Expectations #Convolution #Priorities #Tasks #Assignment #Programming #Engineering #Social #Predation_With_Intent_To_Kill #ToastLily #MichaelReeves #Jummy #Calculation #Early #Sequencing #D20 #Bedroom_Is_The_Office #Encoding #Codify #Gambles #Gift

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NSFL - Not Safe For Li(⨘)e aka Aria get the fuck out of there

Hashtag Surprisal! #Surprise_Affix #Affix #Oral_Fixation #Aria #Birthday + #Unaware = #Vulnerable , #Murder_Intent | #Lip_Bite #LadyKiller #LilyPichu |

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IF (LILY === 'SECURE') ? 'MURDER' : 'SHY';

#Figurine #Silhouette #If #branching #Relevancy #Shy | #Friends #Return_Mass_Killing | #Coded #Encoded | #Cloak #Void #Suicide |

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INTING aka Jossle

#How_Do_I_Expose #Voyeur_Kink #Jossle #Jarring #Confusing #Only_One_Answer #Phantom_Pain #Shadowbox

Everyday Wear

#Lip_Bite #Techwear #Goth #Darkness #Desparate #Jossle #Corner

The desire to flash, but cornered.

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#Lip_Bite #Techwear #Goth #Darkness #Corner

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Voyeuristic Trends aka Awareness is Key aka Slip of the Mask, Slip of the Pussy

#intentional #flash #flashing #jossle #spastic #satisfaction #Oops_The_Camera_Wasnt_Low_Enough

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Catalyst, aka Reverse Reaction

#Smoking_Gun #Why #Voyeur_Kink #No_One #Reacts_Like_That

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Sex play may involve Roleplaying of other "friends" between Toast, Lily at least. Setting up the scene for sexual abuse and gathering expectations. Possibly Jummy, maybe. Think about it, it makes sense. All that DnD? Where does that go. Goes one place. Animals.

height shaming in this context, lily context = misogyny

think about it, all girls all girls. all girls. all girls. oh but also michael reeves. so it's ok. #cloak #captain

Other concerns including not telling Imane that her wardrobe may not be the best idea for the content. They notice, but say nothing. They're very in tune with their animalistic urges.

The current pin is: 📍📍📍📍📍📍📍📍📍📍📍📍📍📍📍📍📍📍📍📍📍

Conditional Bend aka Bend over I guess?

#Doggy_Style #Doggie #ARFARF #ToastLily #MichaelReeves #Cuck #Free_Use #Fetish " #Degenerate "

9:13 - Interesting bend. The movement is there, the follow through isn't. Very expert, conditioned.

9:18 - Granular, reflexive bend. Notice how skilful it is, or in other words, how automatic is. Primitive. Something common when highly conditioned, whether it be practise, or emotional trip. The movement is quite snappy, that's the point; the technique to bend over is there on command, or even less: with basic context clues aka touch, positioning. Something ingrained in humans as an animal. #Free_Use #Consent #Boundaries #Animal #Sex_Telegraph #Food #Noodles

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Index: WIP because there's a good to do this and I don't know yet - 9:08 PM 2024-10-22 / Shortcuts / Thematics / Abstract

시간 Root - #Borderline_Personality #LilyPichu #Family #History #Mother #Violin #Irrecoverable #Criminal

#Public #Voyeur_Kink #Streamers #Space #Twitch #Youtube #Target #Convolution #Constellation #Stars #🕊

ᑕOᑎTIᑎᑌᑌᗰ - Public_

Rewrite the Stars
- playlist
- music
- sym
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DONT RUN WITH SCISSORS !

#LilyBean #Chibi #Anime #Animation

Aesthetic,.;-.,./+*✦☆ Mechanics of Art

Madoka Magica #Anime

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#Food #Marriage #Long_Term #🌪 #Narrative_Design

Marriage in Murder

Toast, Lily
- Last Cup of Coffee
  - Comfy Cafe
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        a ficitious criminal organization with specific hierarcy.
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        a real cafe that's hosted over many weeks, with no real features other than specific times Lily will show up. It's a persistent cafe for a short amount of time. Plenty of time to do whatever you want, operationally, it's consistently inconsistent.
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  - Consistent food thematics over the lifetime of OfflineTV

==Essentially, Toast and Lily have an oral fixation on murdering their friends via consumables, in particular food stuff. Coffee, and Toast's is unknown right now. Maybe noodles?==

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Comfy Cafe is a cafe created to operate for a few weeks. It doesn't persist outside of it. It sells merch, then runs out of merch. It continues forth. Does it have anything really special on the menu? No. I haven't looked at it, but I do know a good cafe when I hear, see one. There's no talk about the drinks, because truth of the matter is, Cafes are figured out in terms of quality for the most part. Atmosphere is basically it. People bring their laptops and study.

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To me, with everything considered, it absolutely does feel like a way to kill everyone. Drink that last cup of coffee with a smile. Why would you ever like that? Drinking coffee, as well? Unlikely, you're in hospice, in the hospital on your death bed with whomever still loves you from all the horrors you've committed. Lily isn't delusional. She's well aware of what she's been doing, malicious intent, motivations, calculation. Comfy Cafe is a calculation of death, it's an endgame for her. & It's already in syndication. Yeah, syndication, google that definition, because I'm not right now.

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Blindfold play is something to obscure the fact that we have no trust in each other. Or do we have a strong trust in each other? It's a thin-enough-veil, to layer on the cloak. That's the recent obsession with blindfolding, particularly from Toast and Yvonne. It's a "playful" way to try to obfuscate public content, by instilling audience trust. So, if historically a new viewer sees that, goes back in time, they will see the things we see as normal. Trust? We have pure trust. It's a thin veil, it's a last ditch effort. It may also be more specific to something in the past, that I just don't know about. The blindfold play described here is very loose, but it persists somewhere. -cite-

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Similar to how LilyPichu will force the SweetNSour Podcast to do a journal dump. This is to normalize the invasion of the privacy that LilyPichu commits on a daily basis, consistently, shamelessly, intentionally, maliciously.

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The recording is a blindfold play, a common kink in BDSM sex.

"What is he doing?"

This is a description of life. It's what I do everyday, it's a limitation of the medium. It's also a propulsion of tension.

When you lean over the side of a building, whose going to catch you? 

Ok, now that's not a blindfold necessarily. But the idea gets the point across. Below is darkness, light is above. You're dead if you fall. The person in front of you, is devaluing you, idealizing you. Wondering what's best for you. Abandon? Your own mind leaning over edge, also takes flight. You're devalued because you're leaning over the side of a building. You're idealizing because you're wondering what death even feels like, or what the afterlife is.

My point is that, you're both going through a reflection in terms of description. The imagination is meant to take hold, and you begin to necessarily visualize, especially if the play, or sex act, is very vivid in description.

To me, it's likely that Toast-Lily, do this exact same sex act, but in very vivid details about everyone else they try to fuck with, Imane, for example. Michael probably spectates, but he get's his fixings eventually. Tanner, is an erxample. They probably fuck to my recordings, feeling so god damn powerful. Especially for my cum shows. Which just to let you know, weren't very good, and very forced. It's more than enough for them though, they're on cloud nine.

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📍Test & Recognize aka Scan, Analyze?, Pounce aka Animalistic Trends towards the Booty #Question_Mark

#animal #automatic #scan #doggie #ARFARF #ToastLily #Marriage #Public #doggy_style #Jummy #Godfather #Temmie #Davinky https://www.twitch.tv/lilypichu/clip/SavageLongCroquetteAMPEnergyCherry-z5URoZ4Gg1nbRYoE

As of 2024-10-21 it is plausible, that LilyPichu fucks her dogs. Possibly #Jummy #Person_Of_Interest too. #Beastiality

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Persecution: the case of Connection for LilyPichu

#connection #friendship #identity #bottom_line #ultimate #Public #Voyeur_Kink #Pre-tension #Musical #Play

The idea of a musical or play in this context, is that, this is how Lily generally perceives her life, then, with co-conspirators play out their persecution complex. Thus, the consistent levels of pre-tension is consistently at play. Gamification is an example of the outcome of the persecution. It's always a game no matter what. Why? They always feel like someone is coming for them. That's the public. That's why they operate publically. For the rush. This ties in with image, idealization, basic borderline shit that needs more research on my part. Don't be swayed, everything I've said here is absolutely correct.

Persecution is common in delusive patients. It's one of them. Did I write the Cascades in a persecutory manner? Absolutely. The intentional, ,forced bannings of me in Janet's, star mittens, chat. "hi" -> insta-ban. We all know this too. The persecution is the rush of the subsequent public pay-offs Toast, Lily, Michael when they can set up the pre-reqs for their sex ring to fully profit both physically, emotionally, and monetary.

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It's also an easy target for predators. It's not uncommon. Homeless people are preyed on, for this very same reason. Many feel like someone will always come for them, no matter what. In that case, such as my brother, he is reaching out in the case of love. He also has a backdoor meme page in my post to LilyPichu and Pokimane's Facebook, funnily enough. He saw all the Facebook drama dumped down during hospitalization, sort of like me signaling to be his guardian angel in this persecution.


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He'll hold on to silly things like that. He sees it as my true self. I suppose. Silhouette. It's a vision, and I tend to stick to things to see them resolved, for better or for worse. Besides, someone was watching. It primed me perfectly, to never let it go. You signaled something dark, but also warm in love at the end. Thanks Lily.

	Truth of the matter, is Lily has a host of information on many-a-accounts somewhere on her many hard-drives, many-a-spaces. She's collecting mental data on the daily on people, such as her chat, whose next? That's what it is, it's data. That's how her mind purely operates. Her mental illness is in a late stage, and that's why you get "into dust" and the potential of murder. Into Dust is the end of her, her and imane, and she already knew awhile ago, one way or another. That's what makes it so terrifying. The end of imane and her? She said it. Her words, suddenly become to dust because she's losing Imane. Not me, not once at this chronology would I ever say that, that song came out before any flip. I remember listening to it in the car. She was planning the end of Imane, well in advanced. She does have the intent to kill. & it lines up with the Faeiries. She really wants to kill women, in particular. Imane is her test case, or first ever. See: Instagram, persecution complex. Most recent photo before? December 2019.

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Instagram photo post @ Comfy Cafe = "Come and get me, losers."
- Symbolic in representation in terms of killing via drinks
- Imane is seen in the photo, prior to Comfy Cafe visit
- Comfy Cartel, Comfy Cult, Comfy ......
- Faeiries don't exist. Poof. Imane is included intentionally. She's just the isolated one. Easy, easy target. Click of a button, she can kill. That's how Lily operates, she's lazy. Convience is key, both in terms of making money, killing people, targeting people, maintaining people's warped ties.
- Lily doesn't really love anyone but Toast. Jummy, maybe.
	- Realistically Toast X Lily is a union. In actuality, it may as well be a marriage.
	- Common Law
		- Toast moves out. Goodbye Common Law.
		- Comes back. Hello Common Law.
			- Back to fucking on the daily.
			- Talking about their next prey.
			- Publically doing sex acts, semi-public. public. it's still public. Me jerking off in my car at lunch time squished into the hole with the chair pressed up to the max steering wheel, it's still public
				- The audience is a lot of young, Lily is in a children's show. They're doing sex acts, publically. On a stream, no less, posted to YouTube, no less, profiting off of it, no less.

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Married couples break up for 2 months and come back. That's the test of time, a course that is only applicable to the well weathered bride, groom. We all know this. 2 months later, you want nothing to do with that person. That moving out, is functionally, a break up. Lily and Toast broke up for two months, but no one knew. That was probably the most peaceful time of everyone else's life ever.

Time is 9:37pm CST, signing off for now. Have to take care of myself, take a shower, and wash all this dirt off of me. Go to sleep, for the safety of the public. -s [[2024-10-21]]


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#LilyBean #Gamification #Audience #sym #shortcut

#Origin #Aleesuh #Awishu #Predation #Misogyny #Vulnerable #isolation #Men_As_Referers #SymSC #Darkness #Light #Women_As_Limelight

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https://x.com/alissa_twt https://www.instagram.com/alissa_pic/

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My point here with Awishu, Aleesuh, is that she was saying wahoo Long before I ever saw Lily tweet about it. Maybe that's just conincidence and I haven't been paying attention. It seemed entirely out of place to just do it on command, effortlessly, such that I believed it was her thing? Either way, it's an important case to note for this reason. The social contagion of it all. Another girl I did love, crazy huh?

T. Narration:

Reposted: same day.

sym aesthetic & california living telegraph (feed telegraph, how obvious it may seem for streamers in this world)

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==She ended things with me entirely, after I was "harassing" I forget the complete story. But the harassing narrative is a strong one with all these girls who follow this Lily contagion. See: Tiffany. That's not harassment you're just emotionally cheating. Doesn't mean it's the end of your relationship. It happens. The problem is the longevity and the darkness aspect of it all, similar to a LilyPichu. Any self respecting boy likely would have broken up with her over someone like me, because the method of it. That is the catch 22 of me having a relationship like that, it's irresponsible, because if it were to cause the physical break-up then, she wouldn't get me either. Not saying I'm totally in the right or wrong, but a serious reflection for the better necessarily has to occur on their side. My side? Well. What the fuck? Friends? Nah. nah. She wanted more, no different than a Lily. Say it ain't so. The logs, screencaps are there chillin on my hard drive that proves I tried to befriend her before anything, multiple times, actually. It's ok though, that harassment that girls face, sheesh. Men in this space, simply get deleted and sent to the shadow realm. Don't believe me? Look at me, Fed, Albert, Steven. Steven too, mhm. All the same shit. Meanwhile the priestess, lord, saviour, queen, goddess is in touch with all of them, already having fucked all of them. Incroyable, isn't it Imane? I love you boo.==o

==Control of information flow is more powerful than anything. It means you can control what your girls think, it means you can control which guys can even persist in your sex ring. This is why the story of The Cascades resonates with LilyPichu so freely. The authoritarian side of it. George Orwell wrote a book for a girl whose exactly her. Unfortunately, she didn't read it in time to learn that she is a severely mentally disturbed patient.==

==The romance that persists in 1984, shares many common thematics with Imane & I's relationship. Go read it. Jog my memory. It's been a minute, I have a sneaking suspicion my Food Science, College brain had an inkling, seeing as how I had my own mini-harem in College. Never abusive or super toxic, but still, highly questionable at times. I learned my lesson there, in expectations of multi-personed relationships. The foundation of what it even meant. It's why I can feel comfortable endeavouring, and not endeavouring. Context matters, greatly, and I learnt early on what is capable and not. I choose capability, and not maliciously. Same reason why I won't sleep with the hottest girl ever who had her body facing backwards to me on my bed while we "studied." I couldn't give her everything she needed, I didn't even want it. I'm not capable of her. Yeah, Lily. Her figure was perfect. I can still see it in my mind. That's my mind. Incredible, innit? Pristine.==

==Guess what? That memory serves as a testament to respect for women. It always will. My sense of image, identity, doesn't momentarily shift with the earthquakes, or I'm not imagining up phantom pain from defeating your friends in perpetual game of chess imagined in your mind. See, I don't tend to play Chess that doesn't have a timelimit, with a ruleset that doesn't allow seeing 20,000 steps ahead. Similar to how you see writing. You think writing is defined as steps to get ahead. That's art to you. A series of steps to get ahead on your besties. Parking? Game of chess, perhaps? Sure thing, fam. I've got my recording to dismantle your entire psyche, as I "infect" your entire friend group, as a man who has opinions on things. Big SHAQ, man's not hot. Bruv, 'ya man's gone internationa' 'ya 'ear. Britain.==

==Isn't it funny how the prying eye, ear, can get styled on by someone whose suppose to be so illuminated in darkness? You must love me that much. Thankfully, I don't love you a single bit. Quite the opposite in fact. I just happen to be a professional. I am Jodi Foster. I'll walk through hell for the people I love. Then do it again. I love the people. That's the point.==

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#Call_To_Action https://www.reddit.com/r/lilypichu/comments/m5bz2z/wahoo/ https://www.reddit.com/r/lilypichu/comments/lzeqqh/introducing_the_wahoo_button/ https://www.reddit.com/r/lilypichu/comments/m0kpry/lily_wahoos_to_summon_the_lilypads/

#Lilyfication #aria https://www.reddit.com/r/lilypichu/comments/m5dgo6/wahoo/

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Cognitive Map aka "Shock Collar"

Placeholder for tidied Science.

Height + Body Shaming: Physical Frame

#Image #Imagination #draw #insecure #Poke_A_Million_Holes

#ImaneAnys: aka the Crown Jewel

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Imane is in danger, she has been for quite while now. Any day? Maybe. Recall the downfall. #No_Time_For_Comfy_Cafe

It is your duty as a human, then friend, to ensure she has no more contact with LilyPichu, DisguisedToast, Jummy, or MichaelReeves. This is a #Call_To_Action, if you can act in any authority you have to do it. It's public safety, and hers too.

==that means you need to remove yourself from the internet on this whole thing, and see it for what it is. a criminal whose here to kill given the opportunity. i'd love to call the LAPD myself, maybe someone else can do the ~~wellness check~~, or do something.==

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#image #perception #Public_Safety #devaluation #idealization #break-up #SweetNSourPodcast #Voyeur_Kink #Degradation #isolation #Power_Trip

While this may seem absurd, seeing as Lily loves Imane greatly, it's not too far fetched considering we now understand who she is. A desperate women, doing anything in her power to get her way. She will compromise for less in killings, when she realizes she's not going to get her way. You have to run with the strong belief, not the weak one. Sex is weak, anger is strong. -s

Imane does not have enough time to gather her thoughts. It's cut deep whenever that could even occur, & it shows.

I recall this decently from memory. I think I watched it on recording, actually
- the #Musical #Play #Rehearsal
  - is entirely yoinked from me. circa 2021 - 2022. Twitter story, symbol art.
    - I'll post the entire #The_Cascades shortly.
      - Lily knows I was obsessed with imane. She knew I probably would come for her. History shows I tend to do that with girls.
    - #entanglement #early #mathematician #sym_history #sym_relationship_history #Twitch

Basically, the description of "The Cascades" as presented at the time. Which is beyond subject to change, since it is indeed a symbol art story. A unique one. I did it first before Galileo Galilei, or other. I saw Porter Robinson hyping up the album's single with an ascii story as the music video. I was the originator of this idea, and I will take that. Wrong timing, is all.

The Cascades is a dystopian Sci-fi in concept. It persists as a relentless world, where LITE's aka Megaopolis' that house many-a-people are interlinked via each other. They are the necessity of the relentless world, where climate change is quite visceral, rapid, deteroiating rapily making travel nigh-impossible. People still try. Each LITE has a Commander associated with them, I used silly k-pop names for Korea for example.

Essentially, it's a military government who controls "codemonkeys" similar to NSA or the-like information flow. Similar themes to familiar dystopia like 1984. Never was going to be like that, though. I don't like pure authority driven romance.

These code monkies, and other, are contained on many platforms that inhabit this megacity. I'm talking 1000s of platforms, maybe. Probably not in actuality, that's excessive and stupid to write. No good writer would write that. However, the scale is there.

Act 0

It's a dog greeting you to join in on the play. All the seats are riddled in thorns, for some reason. There's a shower to wash off, placed there, because the story knows there's thorns on your seat. Why is a dog greeting you? Why is a dog the host? They're emojis. It's a simple way, and effective way to tell a seemingly complex symbol art. Truthfully, it's convolution. The animals neutralize, or negate the convolution, such that story is so real for some.

Flower. The character that is a bunny. It's partially about a Bunny's journey through this world. However, the emojis are just sort of placeholders, if you will. It's an excellent way to write where you have no idea where you're going.

First of the month. I would plan to post this every 1st of the month. Someone was watching, I just didn't know who. I'm not stupid. Insta nuke in Janet's chat. Insta nuke in Starsmitten. I never typed in any of these chats, and the one I did I remember saying "hi" then instantly nuked. This is intentional by, you guessed it, LilyPichu. Someone was watching.

Lily loved the story about Tiffany and her cheating with me, so much so, that she signaled it, because she knew how I worked. I knew the game, just like she did. Except, mine isn't malicious. I tend to care about the people I chase, it's not a game at the end of the day for me.

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I was an easy target, apparently. I've gone through a series of delusive epsiodes, ones that had Imane in it. That reach for Imane was my desire for a girlfriend, where else but her? She's cute, adorable, sharp when she wants to be, good fashion, style & the rest. It's obvious she was setting me up to love her. She could see the patterns for herself, my void of a twitter @sym1e account. Tweeting into the void, because I knew someone was watching ultimately. 


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It's probably partially her who sent me into psychosis. Factors, yeah. That's one of a very small one. My family is fucked. I've been seeking adhd treatment since 2013, the rest of it would have been illuminated if I had a decent doctor. It's a series of bad luck, miserable parenting, miserable siblings, miserable family. I'm the only one decently standing, and where I am at on the surface to people, isn't impressive.

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I'm the perfect target, apparently. Unbenounced to her, the conditions I setup for myself to chase Imane, and this project are so incompatible with the way she operates. She relies on this darkness, but there is no darkness. I came public early, and I was wrong about whomst'ves's condition, but it will always see a path, no matter what. That was me being true to myself, when I took up this project in the first place. No compromising.

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Act 1

The story starts with the Bunny passing, everyone is gathered to mourn Flower.

Think The Muppets, but much darker, there's a frog, there's whatever animal emoji there. They're having discussions about death, darkness, what it even means to be alive, or dead, even. It's dark. It's corrupted. Intentionally. There's a supernatural element to the story, and it includes corruption somewhere down the line. Not the only super natch ele, but it's certainly one of them. Also something that can plague a LITE, for instance. Operational Security, of a megacity can get a bit authoritarian. We see in China today, during the Pandemic. All my models are based on real life, to some degree. Kowloon Walled City, is one of my models for the idea of a megacity based in this world.


Act 2

I recall the Bunny going on a boat, travelling, seeking. That's part of it's death. The story is about death, and it's journey. Particularly for this one sad Bunny going down the rabbit hole. It's dark, scary, intentionally. I love mature, dark dramas, it's just that I'm writing about a Bunny, it's a placeholder. A great one, at that. I actually love the lil Bunny. Flower is an easy name. It gets the point across just fine. The four seasons, and how destructive they are in this world. Flower ultimately represents the climate. There's portals included here for travel with "airplanes" air quotes for how air planing they actually are. It's all they have though. Portals help a lot. Might be cool, I don't really know. As well, time travel is considered later in other Acts. Essentially, this story represents my writer brain forming for realsies.

Personally, I hate time travel. It just meta-verses things. But you have to understand the thing, by writing the thing. Lily loves the concept of time travel in this. Michael, too. He references hyperbolic time travel or chamber, casually see the Birthday Surprisal. It's no shock.

There's nothing wrong with having a vast array of ideas in your head to ponder in a little story for possibly one person to view one day. I sent the link, because I had too. I had to figure out one day for myself, who it was. Lily was just an easy target for me. I had no real work for her. Poetry? Yeah, I'm kind of the greatest. I'd just crank out for hours between school work. I don't see writing as some art form that is unattainable, holy, like she does. I can write imagery she can't even dream of. I don't embed myself in art for this reason. A song is a song, it can be titled whatever it may dredge up. I write for the people. I know what people like.

Act 3

The symbolic representation of the "LITE" if you will, is essentially a hospital. I've spent many days sitting in a hospital, because my family has a zero communication policy. It's easier to ship me to a hospital for months on end, than to get to know your son on a real level. My mom ships me, because she feels she has no choice. Which is fairly true. Her husband is vacant, and alcoholic. Her husband has no real relationship with any of his children. Her husband still acts like it's 2008. It's not even possible for her to have relationship that close with me, even if she wanted to. Truthfully, any decent parents would have seen the patterns in me from an early age. They'd engage in simple topics and teach you about yourself.


Lily might even love me more than Imane, it's just an easy way to get to me. I suppose. We're both the crown jewel though, we can take that award. That one's decent.


Act 4

This is the time travel act, I think. I'm recalling from memory right now, because that's a better exercise for this thing. It's a loose set of ideas, concepts, symbol art, combined to create a loose story. More of a brain, similar to Obsidian's features. 

The time chamber basically just blows up. It's breaking! At the end of it, the dove feels new, and free again. The dove is me. It's you. It's my brother. It's my sister. It's story of season, it's a story of love, it's a story of family, identity. & How these play out in a relentless dystopian world. The dove is used as a backdoor in this world to deliever messages, similar to Germans acting against authority; gathering in private, using basic gestures, signals, code, during the Nazi regime. A way to share ideas in a world where ideas are used as a means to kill.

This means that isolation is a must. Everyone gets vetted. There are no outliers, else it's all over for them. No different than plots to take down Hitler, there's some that occured. Just like that. Commisserate in isolation, vetted, then vetted again, then vetted again.

In 1984, I remember, characters would communicate by a certain deamanor telegraphed in the eye exclusively. The look in the eye, told that person if they're safe to talk to, or expand a bit with, test the waters. That's cool. Not my taste in dystopia, really, but it's a decent read. Too restrictive. Too romance all the time.


Now here's Silver Waters by LilyPichu in full text, because I'm too lazy to go get my parsed Twitter Archive right now, check back later:

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**_Silver Waters_**

Ch 1

Scarra did not wake up to the gentle rays of sunlight caressing his cheeks, for his room was too dark, nor did he wake up to the incessant screeching of his roommates.

"Oh god..." he muttered, slowly rolling over on his bed so as to not crush his left arm. A sharp pain bloomed from his arm, spreading like a virus all over his upper body. He chuckled slightly at the irony - a vaccination shot that felt like a virus. Was he always so dangerously comedic in the morning?

But now there was a subtle buoyancy to every step he took, an indescribable feeling of freedom and relief that acted as a bandaid to his sore arm. He was finally vaccinated! _Take that, corona_.

He briefly glanced over at his computer. He had so many more hours to do this month, so many games of ERBs to play, so many meetings, so much art to commission…

But…

Quickly checking his phone, Scarra smiled in his dark room, giving himself only a moment’s notice before making a decision.

_Everyone needs a break eventually._

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“Yo!”

Peter was surely difficult to miss, with his bright, fluffy silver hair and tall stature. Scarra waved, beaming at his friend.

“Peter!” he exclaimed happily, getting up from the couch.

“Sup.”

They both leaned in for a firm hug, perhaps a second too long, but Scarra was desperate for any human contact at this point. The pandemic had been rough.

“What movie are we watching?” Peter asked, sprawling casually on the couch. He had on a crisp white t-shirt, black jeans and - was that a new cologne?

“It’s the new Pokimane documentary. Wanted to give it a try.”

“Ah. Have you eaten?”

“No, was hoping we could wait for Abe and order food?”

“Sounds good, man.”

For a while the two of them sat comfortably next to each other while Scarra busily prepped the documentary on screen. They did not have to wait long, however.

“Hey guys!”

Abe sauntered in wearing his trademark tank top, accompanied by a leather jacket and - oh my, was that a new watch?

Scarra grinned, getting up for a hug. His friends were just so good looking! He held up his phone.

“Anyone want sushi? My treat.”

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“I can’t believe she made that much!” Peter exclaimed, mouth half full of salmon sashimi.

“I know! Poki is INSANE!” Scarra bellowed in his usual loud voice, also helping himself to some sushi.

“Business wise, that was really smart of her,” Abe commented, quietly nibbling on his chicken teriyaki. If there was one thing Scarra didn’t understand about Abe, it was the intense dislike of fish.

The documentary had finished, and all three of them picked at their food, talking about the usual - their thoughts, lives, dreams, aspirations, fears…

And then the sun was setting, and it was quiet.

The lull in the conversation made Scarra acutely aware of his surroundings. They sat close together - Peter, Scarra, Abe - with various half finished boxes of food laid out on the table. Scarra could still smell the cologne - he wanted to ask what brand it was without sounding weird - and he could see the glistening of hair spray on Abe’s head. The orange glow of the sunset seeped in through the windows, and Scarra could feel himself start to sweat.

“So, uh…” Scarra coughed. He wasn’t usually this socially awkward. Were they sitting too close? Did he smell? Were they comfortable? Was he breathing too hard? Why did today feel so..._different_?

He was so painfully aware of their proximity, a thousand times more than the pain of his arm.

Were they…

Scarra gulped.

Were Peter and Abe trying to get _closer_ just now?

Understandably, Scarra was nervous. It wasn’t as if he had no experience, but these were his friends. And he had a lot of roommates. To be fair, Toast was in Canada, Michael and Lily were off getting fried chicken, Yvonne would not leave her basement until midnight, and Brodin was a vagrant. So, theoretically, they would not be interrupted..

_Interrupted for what_?! Scarra thought, quietly panicking. _What am I hoping for?_

And then, it happened.

~end ch 1, pay up for more~

Pre- aka Repo

Meta: Command & Cloak

#Meta #Metagaming #Acting #Actor #Grip #Cuck #MichaelReeves #ToastLily

"Acting" #Gay or #Cuck | #MichaelReeves : Cuck ✔️

29:28 - #LilyPichu #Cloak lean on #MichaelReeves

does not look comfortable for Michael #Gay / #Cuck
- pretty heavy lean. he's not comfortable, at all.
- play it cool.
29:59 - #LilyPichu init. smirk on grip that signals playful.
- "ree" "screech" - #reflexive #response
  - #cloak

Mask-(off)

This thing's huge I can't see.

I can't even put it down #bait #probability #tension_gamble #Gamification
- where are we going?
- what are we doing
- do we know where these cog(cks)s go?
- you look like you have a shield #Shelter #Family #Marriage #Security #Shield
- it's a big cog(ck).
thanks. giggles smiles smirk, if you will.
- (is your cock bigger)
contemplates. it's definitely bigger.
- ==i wasn't going to type, anything and let it speak for itself, but yeah I couldn't resist. so here's nothing text, #emptyset==

De-lib-er-ate / sen·su·al aka Verbage / Objective.

sen·su·al

/ˈsen(t)SHəwəl/

adjective

relating to or involving gratification of the senses and physical, especially sexual, pleasure.

"the production of #Toast 's grip is sensual and passionate."

de·lib·er·ate

adjective

/dəˈlib(ə)rət/

done consciously and intentionally.

"a deliberate attempt to provoke conflict"

Similar:

intentional

==calculated==

conscious

done on purpose

intended

planned

meant

considered

studied

knowing

willful

wanton

purposeful

purposive

==premeditated==

preplanned

thought out in advance

prearranged

preconceived

predetermined

aforethought

voluntary

volitional

prepense

Opposite:

accidental

unintentional verb

/dəˈlibəˌrāt/

==engage in long and careful consideration.==

"she deliberated over the sex abuse"

#ToastLily #Deliberate #Romance #Public #insecure #laughter #Hand_Covering_Laugh 4:45 - Toast grips Lily's shirt, Lily giggles uncontrollably covering it.

12:35 - Another grab by Toast.

13:30 - That's 3. #Intimidation_Play #Intimidation

CHEER UP!

#Bit_By_Bit #THREE_LETTERS #Winning #DSG #Logo #Art #Jank #Charm #Money_For_Nothing #Paint_Brush The paint brush stroke sensually on his shoulder. New brush? How does that make you feel?

bit
what's the bit
trying to cheer you upu
i'll paint a new logo
DSG!!
the three letters
in
a
very
artsy
way
yeah
fan art
fan art
fan art
fan art
fan art
#Fan_Art #Sex_Telegraph
- thanks toast, i can always count on you for your vertical progression. -s
  - #Art_Manipulation
  - #Sexual_Abuse
  - #ToastLily #Marriage
    - #Kids #Functions
      - #Parent #Child
        
        #Live_Events #Streaming
        
        #Pre-tension #Baked
        
        #Cooking #Cafe
        
        #Food #Drink
        
        #? #Coffee
        
        ==Lily's got the drinks covered, Toast's got the food covered, if you catch my drift.==
        
        #Last_Cup_Of_Coffee
        
        #Last_Bite_Of_
        
        ==Imane recites her last meal like it was her presentation she had to study for. I wonder why. I've never seen someone perk up faster in my life.==
        
        #imaneanys #At_Risk #isolation #By_Design
        
        #Endgame #Murder #Mass_Killing
        
        ==The reason why this is true, is because they've always seen the end. You can watch today, and see for yourself. It's plain obvious, they just never got there. Way too ambitious for these losers. Still, not to be taken lightly, current day. Look around you.==
        
        #imaneanys it's a matter of safety, your life is in the balance. i would love it if i could call the authorities, but it's a nothing burger to them. it's your own vice. do or die. -s
        
        #Blindfold #ableism #Predation_With_Intent
        
        draw
        
        draw
        
        draw
        
        draw
      - draw
    - draw
  - draw
- draw
- draw
  - draw
    - draw
      - draw
        
        draw
        
        draw
        
        draw
        
        draw
        
        draw
        
        draw
        
        draw
        
        draw
        
        draw
        
        draw
        
        draw
        
        draw
        
        draw
        
        draw
        
        draw
        
        draw
        
        draw
        
        draw
        
        draw
        
        draw
        
        draw
      - draw
    - draw
  - draw
- draw
draw
- draw
  - draw
    - draw
      - draw
        
        draw
        
        draw
        
        draw
        
        draw
        
        draw
        
        draw
        
        draw #Gamification #Art_Manipulation #Sexual_Abuse
        
        draw! you can't touch me!
        
        ==art is a draw, I win either way, because I'm already scheming the next.==
        
        ==lines up with how Michael and Lily play Smash or any other game together.==
        
        draw? yeah. it's definitely a draw there. tit for tat, but not much else, hey Michael? Rock Pussy Cock, which will it be today? flip a coin. 50/50 it's rock, then scissors, then paper, then pussy. cock? where'd that go, the equation is wrong. you see, obisidian is a very hard rock, and so is my cock when Jummy sucks it clean. Thank you for coming to my yearly Youtube Video. -s
        
        #Jummy #Person_Of_Interest
        
        #MichaelReeves #Gay
always nice
are you going to join us
yeah
i
am
sorry about your loss
its
ok
ok
we really learned a lot
i
really
like
your
DSG
logo
you
should
keep
it
forever
jankiness
part
of
charm
keep it if don't make playoffs
if
make playoffs then we'll change it ==February 1st, 2023==
- ==empty set.

Alias: Yu.

#kleptomania #ToastLily #Fake_Name #Alias #clout_chase #Anonymous_Tip #Romance Toast & Lily get drunk and go to a gala together. Tries to steal a fork, clout chase for a aquafina & everything everywhere all at once star. A random event, where they're nobody. A hot date, if you will. Shenanigans amiss.

#Deception #Effortless #Say_What_You_Like #Racism #Alcoholism #Risky Alias: Yu. 4:13

racist undertones
normalization of risky behaviour, #Dangerous if you will ==-i==

Tracking

#Compliation #Track_Record Lily agrees that her view on relationships is like grade school

5:50
- it just kind of happened,
  - i don't know what to say?
    - ==albert?==
  - how do you explain it? #Shelter

Not much to say here (just for safe keepings, when i'll inevitably go look at it again), just the same gaslighting dynamic. Michael really loved Lily first, so it lines up with Lily being incredibly passive and Michael initiating the break up of Albert. It's a couple duo, whose goal is for themselves, and themselves only.

I encourage you to pick out cute moments, as well. That's why I'm not going over this one too much. Those DMs are so dirty, it is a crime scene.

Webbing: On the Count of Conspiracy

Shelter. #Shelter #Sleight

#Albert #Sleightly #Musical #Sleight Thanks for the timeline W E L T A R on Youtube.

Classroom.

This is 2 months after Toast aggressively grabbing Lily during the many ramen challenge.

2x speed
- piano
- perfect transition, never notice, we're back
  - back
  - back
  - back
    - hehehehe
  - masterful transition.
    - flawless
      - surprise birthday
  - confession to make
- ok
  - i'll be right back
    - yes
      - you're streaming it's live right now
        
        stream live got it
      - my back actually kind of hurts
    - thank you for the raid #aria
  - plays piano for under one minute
- im trying to perfect that song
  - goal:
    - [inaudible castle something] ? cosplay of sophie, grand piano, record it 2:11 concert hall
  - that's going to take awhile, hard song to play without mistakes.
    - jesus christ
      - my back is, oh my god
    - why are we playing games
      - i was quite happy in the kitchen
    - he set all of this up already
  - it's so troll
    - i got him a phone for birthday,
      - hawaii trip for my birthday
    - then,
      - vegas stuff paid
        
        this is everything
      - he got me another
        
        i'm going to give him another too!
    - we just keep giving each other presents
  - why are we here?
    - to play games
      - vidya
    - ok
    - ok
    - ok
    - do we need sound?
      - it's fine, it's fine
        
        hawaii, ?
        
        we're going to do that right after arcane
      - where's my phone
        
        i have a picture
        
        it's 11 11
        
        make a wish
        
        sorry
      - shows picture of bokeh night couple picture, you know the one
    - i'm posting at exactly 12am
      - oooh my back
        
        did you set the game to smash?
        
        nope.
        
        that's fien i'll do it
      - i can't do it right now
        
        ==there's an air of tension here.==
    - mods
      - i've been streaming for 10 years
        
        i don't know what that is
      - zero
        
        thank you!
      - has controller thanks michael
        
        you know i play worse when drunk
      - there's a fall off point
        
        i'm sorry even my mods are like–
      - @'d ?
        
        i apologize
        
        i think they bought it
        
        ==game sound loud==
      - special relationship?
    - we have a very social relationship
      - you're playing mario
      - i play luigi.
    - wait hold on
      - please mario
  - ==playing the game now.==
    - i'm ready
    - i'm ready
    - inting, falling off map as luigi - lily
      - i can't even concentrate right now - lily
    - this x is crusty.
      - ==barely playing the game==
        
        my x is crusty, i need you to know this
        
        it's super crusty, feel it
        
        it's crusty, right?
      - … game is afk.
    - ==afk…== crusty
      - michael walks away
  - lily gets up too 9:00
    - stretches
- piano book?
  - Ghilbli Best Scores
    - approved by [inaudible] that's why i got it
- wanna see the art board at least?
  - that's ok? that's ok?
  - [inaudibles]
    - thank you
      - thank you
    - can we start over?
      - i don't know what i'm doing
    - play champions we know how to play
      - no
      - no
      - no
        
        smiling - lily
        
        hanenbow
        
        sky}}}}}
      - i do think smash has a lot of fire emblem characters
        
        and a lot are too samesies.
        
        ==fire emblem chatter==
        
        many characters. 11:15
      - can you stoooooop?
        
        it's really hard to play games
        
        leans towards michael
        
        michael ints.
        
        "i know how to play"
        
        mario has no recovery
        
        i'm about to 5-0 you.
        
        if i was few more percent, then something}}}}}
      - it actually hurts, back pain.
    - advil ~13:25
    - i'm also really drunk
      - you can't do that! you can't do that! 13:50
        
        it's not just my birthday, it's your birthday
        
        ==abandonment flirt.==
        
        instinctively
        
        my back hurts
      - she even asked me, i should have told her, why do i do this to myself. "is it your heart?" i should have said yeah
        
        instinctively, no came out ==huh?==
        
        then you can't say no again
        
        michael
        
        exactly!
        
        exactly!
        
        realistically wouldn't have mattered
        
        such a bad habit.
        
        better to say what you want
        
        than like,
        
        bottling it up.
        
        ==say what you want. especially when it comes to instantly denying people. i'm not sure who this is referencing, it's a fragment. doctor? maybe. unlikely, the doctor doesn't care about your heart.==
        
        ==back pain.==
      - why?
    - ==lily wins, and they get up and hug profusely. that's just your average smash bros game.==
      - ==that's the sign of a desperate internal struggle on the daily, & the looming manifestation of it over time.==
    - go again game 2
  - they kiss between smashes, deaths
    - ==thanks for 4x, gaming for life baybeeee==
  - plenty of laughter.
    - ==5x. gaming for life.==
    - ==6x. how illuminating.==
    - ==almost time… 27:11==
  - gift
- exchange
1x, 29:37
- happy birthday michael!
  - open your eyes now.
- just look inside
  - that's from my brother
- wait!
  - yeah here.
    - it's a hawaiian t-shirt
      - that's nice, i lvoe it
        
        look at the price tag
      - ughhhh
        
        matching shorts
        
        i'm going to put them on
        
        alright
      - matching
        
        matching
      - matching
        
        matching
      - matching
        
        matching
      - matching
        
        matching
      - it's funny
        
        i got it for memes
      - comfy at least?
    - we're leaving today
      - we'll be back on the 26th 31:22
        
        vlog, but no stream for 6 days
      - …
    - …
      - …
    - …
      - …
    - …
      - oh boy here we go
        
        aha
        
        i'm so ready for hawaiian
        
        i haven't been home in 21/2 years
        
        you look amazing!
        
        big hug, lifting hug
        
        you have so much drip
        
        upcoming italy
      - so cute!
        
        nother big hug, sitting this time
      - stay in the room, ok?
    - …
      - ahhh back pain, again
        
        why does my back hurt so much?
      - i don't think my back should hurt this much from a back massage. ==oh, so a botched massage caused this much pain? personally i prefer to lean towards lily's somatic illness from her condition. her mind is dreaming up that pain quite nicely. just look at the vod from the other day, she ate fast and was having severe cramping. that's more likely a somatic, dreamt up illness more than anything. not saying you can't have a botched massage, but look around. she seems to always have some sort of pain. the mind is more than capable of dreaming up pain, it's rooted in us. somatic illness. it's a form of pain when your mind can't comprehend others all too well, or your mind processes pain in a warped fashion. i'll do the research myself, but i know i'm closer to the truth than not.==
        
        i'm just getting old
      - 100 gifted
        
        thank you very much: hitsuji_balls
        
        use it to buy food in hawaii
        
        i also
        
        got a custom air freshner
        
        next day shipping
        
        drives a lot
        
        did not come on time
        
        really sad about that one
        
        i got miyoung one too. 34:43
        
        ==hair. hair. hair. hair. that is the creepiest hair stroke i've ever seen.==
        
        #miyoung - doesn't like these people, i totally see you, did before, but y'know.
        
        he doesn't check her mail, even though she's been streaming for a poop ton of time
        
        ==lily is telegraphing her sexual thoughts for miyoung? probably.==
        
        #micahelreeves- "close your eyes" - returns
        
        lily closes eyes, is in anticpiation her legs jossling
        
        michael brings a large card out.
        
        we're going to hawaii!
        
        hawaii! yay!
        
        big surprise wow!
        
        hawaii
        
        we already knew that
        
        ==this is the shit your grandparents do.==
        
        ~35:35
        
        i used your note, you used my note
        
        close your eyes again
        
        another gift,
        
        oh my god!!!!! no way!! i'm goign to cry!!!
        
        ==babifying==
        
        oh my back! it hurts!
        
        ==interruption of the babyfying==
        
        ==psychosomatic, that boy needs therapy.==
        
        ==Que Sera, Sera.==
        
        i think i have that one on vinyl, might have to spin it tomorrow. -s
        
        it's a cute pink bag
        
        i'm going to use this forever
        
        thank you very much
        
        more hugging
        
        mumbles more words of affirmation
        
        i love it!
        
        all my cards together, in there right now.
        
        wanna go out now?
        
        yeah! instant - Michael
        
        it's really cute though look!
        
        ==it's a generic pink bag.==
        
        thank you! thank you!
        
        more hugs!!
        
        now we both have stuff to take to hawaii
        
        YES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
        
        pink one much much better
        
        awwwwwwwwh this is so cute
        
        i love it
        
        this is my favourite
        
        more incessant hugging
        
        happy birthday!
        
        (off screen)
        
        kinda small i like that
        
        this is so cute, oh my god
        
        (on screen)
        
        happy!
        
        happy!
        
        is this suppose to be this short
        
        i kind of like it too
        
        super cute
        
        super tiny
        
        ==oral fixation on bags. wow. whodda thunk it?==
        
        places a glass on her piano, it's over top of something idk.
        
        comfy merch
        
        merch
      - merch
    - 69 dollars
  - haha, sex word, laughs uncontrollably
- more over the shoulder hugging
- as soon as it hits 12, i'm going to peace and watch arcane
  - i told them to go live at 12am
    - this is so stupid, on camera, hawaiian drip
  - saying it's stupid, her gift
    - i'm going to wear this everyday
  - i'm never washing
    - what do you want to do in hawaii
  - temmie! bark bark
    - hey stop it, bad dog
      - lots of bug spray
    - i hate bugs 41:33
  - oh god ok
    - teach me how to boogeyboard?
      - yeah that's actually pretty fun
        
        i can't wait
      - arcane is in 12 minutes
    - i'm so excited
      - mwah kisses dog
        
        i'm gonna go in 12 minutes
      - first thing in hawaii
    - my mom has a day off, ==0.7x. let's hear it #MichaelReeves ==
      - good bye mom im going to 7-11
        
        might say hi at airport
        
        good fucking bye mom,
        
        i'm going to 7-11
        
        to get ==spam mr beast? some food item idk some asian shit==
        
        i get to meet your mom that's exciting
        
        then,
        
        beach
        
        come if you want sneaky giggle, snuck in at the end. he thought that was really funny. cum if you want. it's not that funny, you're suppose to be having a cherished day, it's the lowest hanging fruit. the timing wasn't nearly as good as he thinks. i mean if the timing is the timing, then the timing is the timing.
        
        "i'd like that" - ==tries to softly de-escalate the incessant hug-a-thon that's aggressive in nature. image creep. that's who she wants to be, soft like that.==
        
        ==lily dashes past him== ~42:25
        
        THIS REALLY HURTS
        
        i don't think you're suppose to feel this in pain after a back rub
        
        it's insane
        
        aren't you suppose to feel better
        
        massage for your massage
        
        i'll do that
        
        thanks!
        
        what do you want to do kiss on the top of hand
        
        i want to spend time with you
        
        ==creepy.==
        
        yeah a lot of activities - nice #MichaelReeves very smooth.
        
        what do you want to do?
        
        buahahahahahahahahahaha both
        
        ==get it guys, they're having sex? wow. we didn't get that from the early point where they're incessantly hugging and bickering over the same generic $1.50 life they've been living for the past multi dashed cringelord years.==
        
        thanks imane for the multi-dashed thing, i remember it now. she's a multi-hypenated something. i bet her hymen is feeling mighty great after that hawaii trip.
        
        that's what a beach is!
        
        i wanna get away
        
        yeah!
        
        i wanna have flowers
        
        they opened a jollibee recently
        
        oh!
        
        i had jollibee at least once or twice
        
        one wal-mart on the island
        
        i want to meet your parents
        
        i want to make flower stuff
        
        so we can put it on each other as crowns
        
        ok!!! Michael is the guy at the bar pretending to care she what she has to say.
        
        ok.
        
        i want to relax a lot, for sure.
        
        spend time with you, eat good food
        
        make memories ~44:00 ==pay attention to Michael's face, he is acting like that random guy at the bar just wanting to get laid. he's listening to her drone on about her diva life. it shows in his face as well. he loves it though, at the end of the day. even if he thinks she's a shallow bitch.==
        
        show me like
        
        stuff, show me stuff
      - ==very engaging==
    - 9 minutes i'm so excited
      - so fun
        
        ==hair movements, again. pretension, tension. what's happening?== 44:28
      - UGHHHHHH my back
    - we're staying at an airbnb or something
      - i can't find my letter.
    - i feel like i left it downstairs
      - the letter that daniel wrote me (brother)
    - i can go
      - NO! don't go NO! i'll get it for you
        
        ==dominant display.==
      - ==this is what acting is to the average person, they'd call the scenario, guy and girl at bar, guy wants to get laid really bad, so he has to show a performative act of dominance against the droning diva.==
    - i hear a lot of people ==? i hear a lot of people? who asked, where is this coming from? 45:15 no one talks to their chat like that.==
  - STAY! STAY! let's go up stairs. it's really cute. ==that's the abadonment play, Michael acts completely performative in his dominance anywhere, for that matter, and suddenly Lily's on Cloud9. #MichaelReeves is probably the most passive aggressive person ever. so i suppose this is a landmark event.==
  - playing along, it's really cute
    - #devaluation #idealization
    - it's his birthday too, you know. ==this plays into perception, and the splitting and devaluation, perceived abandonment. they're both playing the same. they are the same one way or another, even though Michael's psyche is much different. they feel at one.==
  - it's our birthday, so whatever.
    - temmie is such a dead giveaway.
      - i'm going to act surprised, ok.
    - laughs uncontrollably, blocking her laughter with the letter Michael gave her
      - i'm really excited for Arcane ==Arcane in 7 minutes? no sane person counts down like this to a pretty basic event in one's life. even if it is a really good TV show, not like this. i remember hosting Game Of Thrones viewings at my party. it was never about counting down the minutes, it was about hyping up from the previous episode, and what could happen. i find it strange the way the surprise, the arcane of it all if you will so well telegraphed and obvious, and yet the pretension is immense. the way they hug and kiss is only playing on the audience's heart strings to win approval. nothing more, nothing less. it's aggressive they way they approach the audience.==
    - that is so cute.
  - that's truly cute
    - you know i have #imaneanys birthday gift from 2 years ago?
      - it's a lily.
        
        ==it's a lily. lol.==
      - a lily ornament thingy for like,
        
        i have like two things from her over here
      - it's realllllly cute!
      - it's reallllllllly cute!
        
        really pretty things
        
        really cute
        
        smiles like a school girl
      - AWHHH FUCK MY BACK~! ==head over heels in love with imane.==
    - guys if you ever have a back massage, it's painful. don't be afraid to tell them what you really want. ==isn't that what you wanted?==
      - even if you're going to make them feel bad.
        
        you got to tell them,
        
        otherwise you're just going to be in pain later
        
        and regret it.
        
        tell them what you want
        
        god i should have told them
        
        ughhhhhhhha acwhwhhacwhawh
        
        uhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
        
        it kinda, oh god! i have this habit
        
        if someone messes up order, i won't say anything
        
        i'll just be like, yeah it's ok i'll try it out.
        
        ==terminal fakery. duplicity in the minor degree here. it's ok to not like things, always.==
        
        47:47

Signing off, I have to go work my other job in the morning. Lots of coding to be done on the application. I work in many branches, not just writing.

❤️
with love, toodaloo~
for imane, and anyone affected.
❤️

[[2024-10-20]]
10:10PM CST
—𝓼

Yeah lilz, let's go with that narrative. Narrative. That's the answer. The girls are immature, and the Scarra, Toast, (Michael) telling you that you did nothing wrong, then you did nothing wrong. Makes sense to me.

I'd love to break this down, but y'all can do that for me. Maybe tomorrow, I have a life, and I need rest so I can live that life. It's 12:50am, way past my bed time. 2024-10-20

Up next: one sec, another keycap broke and I left the plastic bit under the replacement key. hold up 12:57pm. I also have to eat in a sec.

Begin: Dr K. breakdown "preparing for the enslavement"

gotta stretch
- limbs feel very
  - sigh
    - waiting for the engagement -ed
  - michael
- michael
  - oh shit
    - oh my gosd
      - you're standing there waiting for me
        
        ==anticipation, pretension==
      - come in ==pacing in your room because your guilty conscious is off the radar.==
        
        take a seat
        
        ok
        
        ok
        
        sure
        
        twitch
        
        it's a thing where you donate and shit
        
        final level
        
        i'm using it for content
        
        you already succeeded in the goal
        
        how bad if i left
        
        if you win you can leave
        
        rock, paper
        
        leaves
        
        ?
        
        here
        
        here
        
        michael
        
        he lefty
        
        cuts to him back ==he left guys, abandonment play.==
        
        you're not just content to me, you know that 1:30
        
        i value you as a friend, right
        
        michael has none of it
        
        i'll believe it when i see it
        
        that's ok
        
        find that meme on the subreddit
        
        where
        
        this one
        
        pshhhhhhh lol
        
        this one
        
        enslaved content
        
        how do you show this to the chat
        
        enslaved content ==where have i seen this before?==
        
        i really like this
      - enslaved
        
        it's uh
        
        it's a meme on this meme
    - enslaved moisture ==michael loves his meme convolution.==
      - go away
  - ok
    - i understand
      - i get it
        
        that instead of that
        
        do you want to leave
        
        nah
        
        i want food
        
        you can go anytime you want
        
        you can go
        
        now i want to go to spite you
      - sure?
        
        mhm
        
        how are you feeling michael
      - pretty good
        
        tired
      - i'll play a couple games
    - did the same thing, did yesterday
      - how did that make you feel
        
        the games
      - unproductive
        
        but
        
        good
      - because i like playing league of legends
        
        what did you do before league
        
        …
        
        -ed
        
        not a god damn thing
      - and how did that make you feel
        
        opens journal
        
        feelings
        
        alright
      - alright
        
        michael stares at her with endearment ==he loves it.==
        
        one therapist and you're my psychiatrist
        
        what did you do before
        
        not writing words down
        
        drawing a picture of me ==not writing, drawing pictures of her "friends?" no, sorry. lovers. where have i seen that before?==
        
        what's on this notebook is not important
        
        woke up
        
        interesting in vegan?
        
        animals, do you like
        
        yeah
        
        do you think it's a little hypocritical
        
        some good notes
        
        shows michael drawing
        
        when shower
        
        yesterday
        
        psshhh yeah right
        
        weird that i shower once every two days
        
        chat finds it weird
        
        every single time i try to explain this
        
        they think im dirty
        
        do i look dirty
        
        i look fine
        
        how can you even tell over stream
        
        i don't sweat, i don't move
        
        when i play league, i sweat
        
        that's all we were doing
        
        laughter, i'm sweating
        
        do i smell
        
        how do you feel about art
        
        our current problem with league
        
        always end up playing 6 7 games
        
        until we win a game
        
        are we happy
        
        less happy?
        
        quit at losing
        
        why do we always continue
        
        if something doesn't make us happy
        
        why do we keep doing it
        
        chasing the high
        
        when to cut our losses
        
        ==pre-meditation in full affect, the early days.==
        
        ==art,==
        
        actual addiction
        
        when we do win the game
        
        it feels like nothing
        
        how does that make you feel
        
        michael smiles at her, in endearment
        
        it's us
        
        points drawing of both of them to camera
      - it's cute
        
        i'd never wear that shirt
        
        yeah cross out the turtle, cross is the straw
        
        alright im done
        
        thanks for coming to my therapy session
        
        no a discussion
        
        a conversation
        
        i'm not a doctor
        
        serious
        
        i'm really good at giving advice
        
        advices
        
        when did you want
        
        we have a problem with league of legends and productivity
        
        how remedy?
        
        people ask me ho9w im feeling since yesterday
      - i feel fine
        
        i was very emotional yesterday
        
        i went into discussion/convo
        
        i'm going to be cool, not cry
        
        surface level details
        
        nice friendly conversation - 8:05
        
        ==this isn't courageous. she's playing her hand, why would you ever think you're playing it cool in coming out with such a traumatic event? that's why overcoming your fears are so terrifying in the first place. i understand though, she went all in on being a predator. that's the fear she's conquering, didn't take much. she was gladly going to do it anyway.==
        
        7 minutes in crying
        
        blabbing finally, a chance for sym dot sc to go vertical. it's been a second.
        
        i couldn't
        
        i couldn't
        
        really hard for me
        
        ==cloak==
        
        empath
        
        that
        
        do
        
        you
        
        believe
        
        in
        
        such
        
        thing
        
        as
        
        an
        
        empath
        
        cool
        
        term
        
        that
        
        people
        
        use
        
        actually
        
        a
        
        thing
        
        someone
        
        who
        
        feels more emotional
        
        that's a category for more emotional
        
        empath Complete disarray in emotional regulation.
        
        too The empath quandary.
        
        cool
        
        sounds
        
        too
        
        cool Cool? Yeah, I can see the desire for being average human with feelings. Moth to a flame. Can't seek behavioural correction, prefer to behaviourally correct others for herself.
        
        its
        
        like
        
        yknow
        
        lilytwo talking
        
        lily Evidence of a disturbed individual insidiously flying under the radar.
        
        two
        
        i
        
        cant
        
        be
        
        that
        
        cool
        
        i
        
        cant
        
        be
        
        that
        
        empath
        
        you
        
        need
        
        to
        
        accept
        
        you're
        
        an
        
        empath
        
        stop
        
        saying
        
        it
        
        like
        
        that
        
        woah
        
        you're
        
        an
        
        empath
        
        announcing
        
        a
        
        super
        
        power ==power trip==
        
        i've ==verticality, is my pleasure. i'm just that good.==
        
        never ==lily on the verge of mask off, michael steers the course, correction.==
        
        like
        
        what
        
        are
        
        you
        
        doing
        
        you
        
        just
        
        put
        
        your
        
        hand Turn it off. Good trip on personality, Michael. Shows how complicit you are in all your girlfriend's desires to have many girlfriends to satisfy, her many egos.
        
        turning off computer
        
        it's ok if you want to turn off computer
        
        lily two talking
        
        lily one ==degeneracy? nah. criminality.==
        
        i'm trying ==dark humour is a trip for lily's personalities.==
        
        treat
        
        me
        
        nicely
        
        you
        
        know
        
        ==condescension, baked in. this is the womanly response. BE NICE TO ME! my sister, did the same thing the other day. you have to prove to me that you're a kind person over the course of many weeks, many months, many years. typically is characteristic of a negative male presence in their life, or lack thereof one. michael is a negative presence, toast is a negative presence, jummy is a negative presence. people need to be able to help themselves before they can be considered for reproach.==
        
        treat
        
        lilytwo
        
        nice
        
        nice
        
        on
        
        stream
        
        lily
        
        two
        
        it's
        
        ok
        
        to
        
        be
        
        lily
        
        two
        
        it's
        
        a
        
        part
        
        of
        
        you
        
        i
        
        can't
        
        kill
        
        her
        
        ==fight club==
        
        both
        
        yin
        
        yang
        
        not really.
        
        ==michael encourages the "yin and yang" and loves it. the abandonment play is what he loves, they're made for each other. lily shows signs of suffering right here. it's kind of sad, really. then you realize how awful she really is.==

Sure, Michael. You need "both of them." That's just encouraging mental illness, for the sake of your masturbatory desires. There's no glory in using people, and your time will surely run out. My time, doesn't run out. Because I'm timeles

Begin: FedMyster kicked out of Off

i don't even know where to begin
- past few days
  - i asked #scarra sooner you get this over with you're better
    - i'm going to talk about this anyway
  - past few days,
    - guilt
    - shame
    - sadness
      - i feel like i've been minducked
        
        my friends have been telling me one thing
      - another group of people telling me something else
      - lotta conflict
        
        what do i believe
        
        what do i believe in
        
        ==say it.==
        
        i took down the original tweet, because people downplaying
        
        i didn't say no
        
        just cuddling
        
        it's problem i have where i'm minimizing things
        
        it's a problem i've had for years 1:14
        
        my world was crashing down
        
        public
        
        minimizing it again
        
        world crashing down
        
        initial
        
        #scarra
        
        lot of people were trivializing it
        
        i'm a pushover, toob ig
        
        i just believe people
        
        scarra, yvonne in bg 1:42
        
        high school drama?
        
        that's what OTV is
        
        this issue is very serious
        
        scarra, toast, michael, most mature
        
        ==men. she finds men intimidating to the very root of her being. the girls, they are immature, that's narrative she loves. it's clear as day.==
        
        tell me repeatedly that i didn't do anything wrong
        
        i'm not a bad person
        
        random people on internet
        
        always be contextual details not public
        
        i believe scarra etc.
        
        to be honest not worth anymore
        
        i need to move on
        
        learn
        
        no apology
        
        if they tell me nothing wrong
        
        why would i do so?
        
        i'm trying not to
        
        when i think about #fedmyster
        
        i didn't think it was bad at all
        
        i still have trouble believing it was bad.
        
        ==her words, not mine.==
        
        ==if toast, michael, scarra, men, tell me i'm not bad, then i'm not bad.==
        
        tell me that wasn't right
        
        i'm going to want me to believe me
        
        i'm surrounded by psychopaths,
        
        hopefully that's not the case
        
        i think they are trustworthy people
        
        ==surrounded by psychopaths? she's always at odds with people's insights, so she has to confirm for herself all the time, can't have anyone else like her in the room, really. terminal diva, in the criminal sense.==
        
        3:22
        
        no one tells the truth
        
        #yvonne
        
        of course i'm going to let her include my account,
        
        perspective
        
        i thought of future lily
        
        if i didn't validate, experiences, help her
        
        tough situation
        
        torn
        
        i care about both fed and yvonne a lot
        
        a lot of guilt
        
        yvonne is too.
        
        i hope that
        
        all passes
        
        i reached out to fed yesterday,
        
        few days ago when it happened
        
        he wanted to be held accountable
        
        he's playing animal crossing
        
        he doesn't like animal crossing
        
        he must be crying
        
        then i cried
        
        really happy he's doing things
        
        ==by the way, this isn't normal, commiserating with someone who supposedly committed sexual abuse on all your friends requires many distances. not checking into his animal crossing town like you actually put in his friend code and saw for yourself. the idea that you can't delete someone in a day, isn't true. most adults break off and seek comfort in the solo dolo, lonely life, because that's far more emotionally engaging for the idea of a new chapter.==
        
        4:39
        
        he was joking,
        
        squeaky mouse voices
        
        do you hate how i talk?
        
        yeah
        
        so
        
        uh
        
        nice to see him doing things.
        
        taking steps. already
        
        i want him to be well
        
        i want him to get help, similar to albert
        
        #albert
        
        ==boom. admittance of guilt trip. guilt -> power. that's the desired outcome.==
        
        ==the idea that you have to be a parent for someone who has committed sex abuse on your friends is insane. either way, no sex abuse, why is it your business anyway? you're not his mother. you're his girlfriend, you just like the taste, and you got it. chumminess is the best when you get what you want both ways.==
        
        5:05
        
        truly
        
        come back even better
        
        150% believe this
        
        if he needs help, i'll be here
        
        i still struggle with a lot of guilt ==she really did, does love fed. she just loves someone much much more.==
      - i really loved him 5:30 crys
        
        fed
    - moving on
  - i was up late
- shit storm
  - conclusion
    - happening to us
      - everyone is a real person
        
        dealing with real situations
      - we're all trying our best,
        
        everyone
      - the accuse,
        
        the accuser ==cope, rationalizing her bullshit. she knows what she did.==
        
        no matter what position
        
        comment on it
      - stream it
    - upvote
      - retweet
        
        whatever
        
        we're all degenerates together, we're all shit, trying not to be shit, life goes on ==it's always about being degenerate. the world doesn't function like this, and people exactly like lily are thrusted from their position of authority everyday. no different than a catholic priest & their paedophilic binge. the premises may differ, but the principle, the human element is all the same.==
        
        it is what it is 6:29 ==acceptance of her bullshit. thought terminated, thot terminated.==
        
        it's
        
        i don't know
      - right
    - ahhhhhhh
      - i have to give shoutouts to some people
        
        ==why are we celebrating a rape case? this is how people want current day to unfold, they may not think that, but the impass is identical to this one. continuity. one OfflineTV can't live with, can't live without. the labyrinth of duplicity, gatekeeping, webbing. albert was c celebration, so is all of lily's music related to people being used and abused, or killing a bunch of faeries at the comfy cafe.==
        
        ==shoutouts to all the dead faeries, shout out mom before i drink this, this one's for you. i hate the violin==
      - because
        
        if it weren't for them
        
        i've been going crazy
        
        i can't trust myself
        
        i can't trust my own mind
        
        that feeling is so bad
        
        anyway
        
        Dr K
        
        i messaged him that day
        
        i'm going through a lot of things
        
        i appreciate your perspective
        
        10am, 11am
        
        free today at 2?
        
        that's in 3 hours 7:20
        
        he actually talked to me
        
        that day
        
        you don't need to pay ==so, the initial point, the freudian if you will, is about money in relation to his psychiatry. doctor who? doctor payday.==
        
        entire situation of people taking advantage of others
        
        when you're like this how could i accept payment
        
        i won't accept money, in the future i will
        
        human to human,
        
        perspective
        
        i really appreciate him talking to me
        
        amazing person
        
        he carved out time
        
        sort out of my mind
        
        people telling me things
        
        drinks
        
        toast #Toast - 8:20 ==notice the voice inflection, and how she fries her voice when she's hyping him up==
        
        he cares a lot
        
        obviously
        
        he propels things forward
        
        out of care and concern pretentious
        
        care for all his friends
        
        really really good person
        
        Scarra #scarra
        
        asked scarra a bunch of questions
        
        voice of reasons and questions
        
        scarra doesn't bullshit
        
        he will tell you aas it is
        
        i really needed that
        
        i can trust him.
        
        scarra helped me a lot
        
        he's #god
        
        it's like i'm talking to him
        
        it's a drawing of him
        
        ==god in the form of art? sounds familiar.==

9:19 - Poki's statement, she's been holding it in for years and years

part of the reason she felt bad for the hate
- yvonne and i are getting
  - that was very brave of her holding that in for years.
    - ==so it's characterized as brave for holding something so traumatic in for years? seems to me it's the opposite. overcoming trauma is possible, but when you're actively creating more insidious trauma or potential harmful events, then it's impossible to overcome trauma. trauma is a backlog of memories and experiences that haven't processed, period. if you're calling friends brave for holding in trauma, for years no less, you're actively hampering their development and growth into become a happy and fulfilled person.==

9:26 - Steven drove over at 4:00am

Steven, I'm going fucking crazy
- chocolate almonds
  - you're not crazy
    - walking through in a logical way
      - if not scarra, then steven
        
        steven wouldn't bullshit me
      - if steven and scarra are both telling me
        
        similar things, they have a point
      - my judgment
        
        isn't the best, haven't been the best regarding other stuff
    - yvonne someday will still doubt herself and feel bad
      - but
        
        all her friends standby here
        
        it wasn't easay
        
        aria
        
        koo-koo
        
        baked me cookies
        
        i wasn't eating
        
        aria is a real homie
        
        she's been there for me, literally everything 10:52 aria
        
        real homey.
        
        michael
        
        michael
        
        stayed with up with me all night,
        
        made sure i was ok
        
        there for me
        
        reassured me
        
        overall reminded me why i loved him so much
        
        damn i knew i loved you
        
        god i really love you
        
        holy shit
        
        i'm really thankful for michael
        
        yeah
        
        past few days, lot of downs
        
        sigh
        
        i hope that made sense
        
        sense?
        
        some people reached out to you
      - my brain is still scrambled
    - cliche things, i'm saying them
      - i'm not perfect
        
        bark bark bark dogs in background
        
        this isn't helping
        
        temmie come here
        
        ==pretty cold considering they're your dogs, they're barking. you're suppose to be having a heartfelt talk, the dogs are just doing their thing. sometimes interruptions telegraph your actual internal state.==
        
        temmie too, my brain,
      - say
    - cliche
      - i'm not perfect
      - i make mistakes
      - i have made mistakes
        
        i'm trying not to blame myself
        
        my brain is fucked
        
        i keep blaming myself
        
        i stilll believe i shouldn't have made certain things public
        
        i still believe this ==image quandary, standard.==
        
        difference
        
        between
        
        wanting to share
        
        &
        
        not wanting hate
        
        i feel that is naive
        
        yeah
        
        yeah
        
        should know better
        
        other cliche things
        
        please don't send hate
        
        i feel like my actions should speak louder than words
      - i'm going to try to be a better person.
        
        i'm trying really hard to not blame myself.
        
        ==strange. how can you be blaming yourself so much for a something that came off as a rogue actor that's not you. that's a mighty fine guilty conscious for something you seemingly had little part in. at least on the most charitable level possible, which is what everyone gives you.==
        
        i'm trying to stop it
      - it's not bad to be a better person
        
        we should all be that
      - i'm trying not not not not not
    - apologize
      - it's hard, it's hard
        
        ==why think that you need apologize, period?==
      - 14:00
    - yvonne and scarra enter lily's room
  - temmie
    - that's who were here for
      - scarra do you like how i have a picture of you
        
        that's kim jong un
      - it helps me!
        
        scarra!
        
        if i have trouble speaking, scarra is there
        
        that's not me
        
        i want a scarra poster in my room
        
        what would scarra say?
        
        do it based on him
        
        scarra will become my moral compass
        
        ==easy web. scarra = moral compass, quite literally.==
        
        14:56
        
        scarra yvonne leave
        
        i don't want temmie
      - ok
    - excited for them to leave. lol
  - trust me
- everyone in the house
  - has not gotten enough sleep
    - gathered, talked
      - very nuanced situation
        
        ==it's not nuanced though, is it? just because there's a backlog of text, video, doesn't mean it's complicated. it's convoluted, maybe. sounds familiar. my relationship with imane isn't complicated. i still love the girl. it's drenched in convolution, there's a huge distinction. there's love, and there isn't love. just because you claim to love somebody and your actions speak the complete opposite, doesn't mean that's your love to have. my actions, or in this case words, dust, shown a consistent pattern of a warm love, not the cold web of lies, and duplicity. the coldness in my heart stems from you. kill all the girls, if i recall? that was the crux of my outburst. that's not mine. i have a very healthy relationship with women, and i always have. it's simply put to the test on the daily. which is why i finesse in the first place, i care about these girls.==
      - feels so hypocritical of me to say
        
        genuinely
        
        sighhhhhh ohhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
        
        i'm the least confrontational 16:04
        
        i'm so conflict averse ==this isn't anything to be a proud. it helps you have co-conspirators to do it for you. your conflict averse nature is what got you here. it's an unhealthy level of delusion that imane agrees with one or another.==
        
        clouds my judgment
        
        everyone wants to get along, i want
        
        it's so ingrained in me
        
        anyway
        
        it's nuanced, but it's hard with the internet and stuff
        
        i could go on
        
        he said she said
        
        in the end
        
        ultimate, ==strange ultimatum. 16:40==
        
        we're all degenerates together
        
        i think
        
        one lesson
        
        i'm going to trust my friends a lot more ==duplicity
        
        i'm going to trust scarra
        
        steven
        
        yvonne
        
        aria
        
        toast
        
        they're all wonderful people
        
        who have
        
        they're very good people
        
        i should believe them
        
        when they tell me things
        
        "no you're wrong"
        
        guys are just saying that im a terrible person etc.
        
        mute them,
        
        instead of believing them
        
        a tiny portion of the internet
        
        ==ironic how she loves my old twitter account @sym1e that's a tiny portion of the internet. silence, i suppose.==
        
        it's hard not to apologize
        
        i'm trying really hard
        
        this is ingrained in me
        
        i've been realizing
        
        how unnecessarily apologetic i am
        
        it's really hard
        
        what i should apologize for
        
        even though i should apologize for something
        
        if you apologize for everything, what are you really apologizing for
        
        shoutout to Destiny's offline chat
        
        ==hey that's me==
        
        i popped in there the other day
        
        i just talked to them
        
        it really cheered me up
        
        talking to them,
        
        i was crying while talking to them
        
        really emotional
        
        in terms of everything
        
        degenerates ==there it is==
        
        yee or pepe
        
        ok,
        
        pepe is superior
        
        count us down for a blubstiny
        
        they're so endearing
        
        crying laughing
        
        pepe is bad
        
        these don't make any sense to those who aren't in that chat
        
        it's so cute
        
        i want to give them a shoutout
        
        ==steven, the backdoor. well played, sir. that's how it played out, but you were just being a good friend.==
        
        i had a rough skeleton
        
        steven looked it over for me
        
        respect for scarra grew in the past days.
        
        ==lily doesn't respect scarra whatsoever. we all know this.==
        
        logic
        
        facts
        
        his objective opinion ==destiny? or scarra? michael, toast?"==
        
        these people will tell me if i'm being a shithead
        
        i hope i
        
        regardless of what i say today
        
        these are my true feelings
        
        that's all i can say
        
        honestly i,
        
        i might need a few more days off streaming
        
        talk more
        
        sort of my feelings
        
        just
        
        just
        
        just
        
        yeah
        
        stuff like that
        
        i'm not apologizing for it
        
        i make my own scheduling
        
        when i feel better
        
        i don't mean the fuck you part 21:46
      - ==fuck you? no, fuck you. that's fairly heartfelt. these are your true feelings.==
    - i'll be back on Sunday, I don't want to delay DnD anymore.
      - 3pm
        
        earlier if that's great, that's because i feel better
        
        take my time
        
        do what's best for me, and no one else
        
        i think that's all
        
        i feel a lot better.

still trying to love somebody so far gone, such that no one can ever get to her. it's really bad after a cursory glance. she won't improve, like i thought, at least not living the LA girl high life. since i know she's so far gone, it makes it more interesting, for me. not others. the problem at the moment is that my life is a nightmare, this week sucked. goodnight. ~ 2024-07-14 12:36am, 12:38am

it's only going to get worse. i do believe that, too. not for me, i always come around. or could be for me i guess too, who knows? this woman could get violent unironically if someone's isolated enough. the break up is just another power move, and it shouldn't be seen as anything else. it's her narrative. stay close to her, to protect others, that's how fucking sad it is.

i love you rachel, you are everything i want in life

#equivocal #ambiguity #splitting #split #🪞 #🌪 #🐢 #narrative

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30/70?,
70/30?,
100/0?
- I think it'd be some form of 70/30 split? majority ex.
  - maybe not though, the break up doesn't make any sense.
    - "the real world" you tend to break up over a message, or face to face.
      - i think most people would even reject the idea of a delayed breakup via a youtube video that's meant for an audience. it's absurd, but. that's where we're at.

TLDR IF U WANT TO GO TO SLEEP IM SICK OF MY LIFE BEING A FUCKING SPLITTING SCENARIO ALL THE TIME JESUS FUCKING CHRIST AS FAR AS IM CONCERNED THE RECORDINGS ARE ARCHAIC AND A HOLDOVER FROM A WOMAN WHOSE ABANDONMENT ISSUES ARE SO SEVERE IT'D TAKE DR HOUSE MD TO DO ANYTHING ABOUT IT

Imane's Narrative Design - Toxic Spl/itting

2024-07-13 aka, splitting is my language because I've never felt control, and my situation encourages it, or permits it gracefully.

aka preparing imane for her doctor's appointment, in the year 2032, so none of us has to deal with this annoying bitch and she can come back to life without being pushed around.

==from quick research: by letting her break up on youtube, it's only worse, just a heads up. not looking good.== 2024-07-14

#Distortion #Cognitive_Distortion #Perception #Ideal #Value #Loyal #Loyalty #Marriage #Babies

Mechanism: Sl/e/i/ght

Individual will perceive something in contradiction to their image of self/close person
https://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pmc/articles/PMC11114086/
-> a slight or simple perceived attempt at abandonment.
- or
feeling of unwanted attraction
- so,
- idealization #flirt #attraction #MichaelReeves
  - &
- devaluation
  - means that,
    - there is polarization in not only an individual's self model
      - but,
    - also their own self model.

#Fantasy #Manipulation #Cold #Calculated #Detached

Embellishment: Invention Artist

https://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pmc/articles/PMC3575083/
invention of greviances
- garnering: an emotional response
  - from those around them
- that they feel matches their own distress at the situation
- ==she's getting worse, not better.==
  - more valuable the social bond is to be preserved? ☑ #Friends - whatever she has left
    - or
  - higher general need for social acceptance ☑ #YouTube
    - ->
      - the higher the probability that they engage in psychologically abusive behavior ☑ #Bleak she's stewing. no one can save her.

2024-07-14 ~ 12:06am going to sleep, because i need it. goodnight.

Management - we do what we must because we can

2024-07-14 ~ 12:14am, 12:33am

 
#### ANALOGY REPO:
#### Problem Solving is a sin.

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Black or white, it doesn't matter. That's what it is. ===Exapnd===

Our stomachs are highly acidic. ???? ===Expand===

Soap is both hydrophillic-hydrophobic. Head-Tail. ===Expand===

Nuance. ===Expand===



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Basically Imane has BPD and this is my BPD research page now. It was only a matter a time I suppose. Don't take it personally, sweetheart.

For future love for Imane.

finesse # noun

fi·nesse
1.
 refinement or delicacy of workmanship, structure, or texture

2.
 skillful handling of a situation / adroit maneuvering

#finesse I'm pretty refined in bullshit, so I can wait for y'all read this dogshit so it can fly away one day I never have to think about it again. Because Imane is a black hole and the more you talk about her, the happier she gets.

#i_want_to_fuck_pokimane i'm just here so i can get the chance to have sex with pokimane, that's what my vault is exclusively, and some bullshit recordings.

#tipping_point #repulsive #🪞 #☣ #Value #dissonance #business don't mind me just trying to make this as toxic as possible, i can finesse this forever. do you want me to? let's find out. my goal is to make this so toxic, annoying, repulsive, and also real, such that everyone will hate it. this vault has never been more toxic, and i think i'm going to get comfy. here's more worthless words for Imane Anys, the proud slave owner. it's the gift that keeps on giving. this vault is worthless to me as well, so let's it worthless proper.

any other news outlets i can hit up, i already sent messages to dexerto, weeks ago. no response wtf?

This looks good. https://metro.co.uk/2024/07/09/pokimane-details-latest-breakup-secret-ex-21192525/

This looks good. https://www.msn.com/en-ca/news/world/pokimane-details-her-latest-breakup-but-who-is-her-secret-ex/ar-BB1pFT99

https://metro.co.uk/2024/02/01/pokimane-says-left-twitch-youtube-male-toxicity-20206180/
OH EM GEE SO MUCH MANSOPHERE SHIT!!!!

Remember guys, women can't be toxic and are pristine breeding, marriage ready, baby producers who can do no harm. It's ironic because she is the women-sphere.

#desperate #probability ==I'm only writing this on the 0.0000000001% imane fucks me, and sends me a message that makes cum buckets, TONIGHT! YES I AM A WRITER LOOK AT ME WRITE I AM MONKEY DESIGNED TO WRITE FOR THE CHANCE AT A MESSAGE!==

Some quotes:

#incoherent #detached #out_of_touch #ambiuguous #duplicity #equivocal

‘For the last couple of years, is it just me or do you guys also feel like it has regressed a lot? Especially with the rise of so much manosphere, red pill, bulls***. I feel like that stuff has flourished within the male-dominated live streaming sphere. I can’t be surprised. It’s the online demographic that skews males the most, so of course manosphere stuff would perform better there.

Regression.

re·gres·sion

1.
a return to a former or less developed state.


2.
a return to an earlier stage of life or a supposed previous life, especially through hypnosis or mental illness, or as a means of escaping present anxieties.

Flourish


verb.

1. 
To develop or progress rapidly and successfully

2.✅✅✅
To (excessively) boast about one's accomplishments, qualities, or possessions

3.✅
To exist in abundance

4.
To have an exciting or fulfilling life

_____

noun.

1. ✅✅✅✅✅
a bold or extravagant gesture or action, made especially to attract the attention of others.


2.
an instance of suddenly performing or developing in an impressively successful way.

The most vague take, she doesn't even know what the manosphere is. Are we talking fresh and fit? Honestly that's really only mansophere shit I know and I'm pretty clued in for the most part. There's Sneako, I guess this is mostly in reference to the Tate era, but that wasn't even on Twitch. Also Sneako is on Rumble and so is Fresh & Fit. What manosphere are we yappin about here?

‘But it was just disappointing seeing this community and industry that I have so much love for relish, almost, in this s***. So many of the things I see… figureheads in my industry, the most popular, well established, typically male, creators… some of the stuff I see them say and do breaks my heart. It’s hard for me to exist in a community and watch that happen.’

Relish.

noun.

1.
A piquant sauce or pickle eaten with plain food to add flavor


2.
The act or state of greatly enjoying or finding satisfaction in something

3.
A fondness or positive regard for something

____

verb.

1. ✅ jealousy
To take great pleasure or satisfaction in something

2. ✅ jealousy
To anticipate something with great eagerness

Does she even eat relish, bro? She didn't even say anything. In fact, the condiment part of it was the most coherent.

Personally, I hate existing in a world were people can promote themselves as one thing, when they're not at all. At least when I watch Fresh and Fit, I know that they're both unbelievably deranged, and love it. Pokimane's brand is being a woman. Not much more. Fresh and Fit's brand is good. Fuck the ethical.

Please imane fuck me. I'm desperate you love desperate boys. Perfect prey to manipulate. Please fuck me your eyes are so pretty and I wanna fuck you.

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