2024-10-26 taylor swift https://drive.google.com/file/d/1CCvDr7eMbqF5MjuLcCquJg5xf1DllcR9/view?usp=sharing

updating off and on today conversations with my 'ex' 'girlfriend' today

delusional aka furious phishing aka pregnancy, weddings, birth, babies aka hating women and men at the same time is my job & identity. https://drive.google.com/file/d/1CjGOT4gkfX8kPehV3DEqKlmwj9bPRXAx/view?usp=sharing

recs all night https://drive.google.com/file/d/1Ck8cEk3W_RZAfoIlGojzZgSEmJfwcnAo/view?usp=sharing

thought thot thought https://drive.google.com/file/d/1CkTER5VTu5RThOnRrn7gAd3mA-MW-58K/view?usp=sharing

scat https://drive.google.com/file/d/1CuCagk8Elrmm7l39nYopAIvMFwxjlG79/view?usp=sharing

sweetnsour https://drive.google.com/file/d/1D2h-s-xiRVaM_0HM_QwMzACM_yEG0Iny/view?usp=sharing

last cup of feces https://drive.google.com/file/d/1D9Q0HKjwBMVTV-EqceTRk0o6VLjzF6fc/view?usp=sharing

reflexive https://drive.google.com/file/d/1DFYu3KEpdMEpXreo1XK-9yT4jhiYu1yM/view?usp=sharing

last cup of toast cum https://drive.google.com/file/d/1Dajhneg4uBnqL2Ep9mlIDqWYzaJSWaYW/view?usp=sharing

eleven https://drive.google.com/file/d/1DrbaVEt90iY5KMHK5hTjjh3ROsRttAfl/view?usp=sharing

Part of [[conversations with my 'ex' 'girlfriend' today]] - an investigation into OfflineTV written by Tanner Agar

8:11 - Imane gets excited that she's "influencing her friends,"

• underhanded Lily replies "Some might call her an influencer"
  • calling someone an influencer, underhandedly, while they're getting exited about how she's affecting her friends in anyway, is nothing more than devaluation, a move only a severe prick would do. she gets away with it because she's a woman, who has a high pitched voice as an extra plus.
• imane instantly replies shut up
  • studio laughs
• #devaluation 9:03 - Green Pepper speech idealizing
• making fun of imane for supposed lack of insight
  • lily breaks out in laughter
    • this is condescending
    • lily is basically saying that imane is stupid - narrative that imane is just stupid 12:38 - "i want chipolte" baby voice
• Imane is obnoxious
• baby-> ahahahahahahaha
  • "have i ever told you i love being friends with you" 20:01 - lily - desperate for coochie voice ==pwease into dust==
• balance
  • what ifs, wonders
    • let loose enough
      • "maybe sometimes the right thing? ==s?== can be what makes you happy" ==give me gifts all the time that makes me happy so it makes you happy all the time== idealization of happiness.
    • oooh
      • make it the right ing
    • if it makes you happy is bad for you
      • eating potato chips for you
        • a lot of things
      • like that matcha
        • it's green so it's heatlhy
      • hehehehehe
    • if it's green it's healthy
      • you know what else is green
        • #vomit
      • for the day
    • i think it's going to exist
      • i am excited for you
    • giving me something ti look forward to
      • chipotle outing
        • am i allowed to borrow it
      • definitely wont be using it on my behalf
    • share
      • we can go together
        • blush
      • deor
        • makeup
      • i don't know girl
        • it looks good on everyone
      • don't tell anyone
        • products
          • yvonne's blush
        • used it on myself
      • overrated
        • dior product
          • expensive
            • i think if that lip oil
          • two things worth height
        • dior's blush
          • oh imane blush is so bad
        • thank you

22:34 - influency, imane is obnoxious. turnaround. 23:10 - It's almost Christmas,

• santa's naughty list
  • sex
    • it's October, #calender
      • "crazy man "
• 23:21 - christmas is 2 months away guys!! #news #Gift #gamification #Oral_Fixation #Expectations #Bag #Free_Use
  • it's really interesting
    • imane baiting
  • swap roles
    • tiny girl
  • fuck boi
    • smile more
  • guy looks super uncomfortable
    • the girls are so good at it #Role_reversal
  • fuck boi
    • it's not a joke
  • bummy
    • episode
  • bummy
    • episode
      • ahhh i see
  • oh my god
    • #simmer #marination #mellow_yellow 24:40 piss play? with toast #Bathroom #Territorial
• 24:45 settling #sink #dream
• -> 24:55 abrupt switch back to makeup
• 32:43 - #jostle #food #drink #Mass_Killing #Power_Trip #Vulnerable #Oral_Fixation The dogs came over enthralled by here food #Nervous_Tick #Reflexive #Voyeur_Kink #Public_Eye #Public_Killing
  • ==kill all her friends live on stream via food/drink, coffee or other.== #Time_Warp #Public_Perception #Darkness #All_In_A_Days_Work_Innit
    • #narrative
      • boy i cant wait to eat my sandwich as she reached into my bag
        • and pulled out a white
          • paper boooooooox?
            • camera once again
          • because an influencer
            • that's what she does
          • god i wish that were me
            • i'm just joking
          • she'll take it seriously
            • i'm just joking
          • can you do that thing they do
        • korean variety shows
          • where they replay something
        • replay three times
          • add reverb,
            • i wish that were me
          • #aNIMAL_PLANET
        • god i wish taht were that me
          • #Death
            • variety shows
          • #Germany #Pied_Piper
        • #delusion #enticement
  • **one that offers strong but delusive enticement**.

Pied Piper

• middle ages

  • so,
    • a piper
      • ==dressed in multicoloured==
        • pied clothing
      • rat catcher
        • hired by the town to lure rats away
      • magic pipe
    • so
  • then
    • citizens refused to pay for service as promised
      • ==story about promises==
    • piper -retaliates-> magic on children, leading them away as had rats
      • ==Lily sees Imane as an instrument, same with Aria, Jamie.==

• The phrase "pied piper" metaphor for a person who attract a following through charisma or ==false promises==. ✔

  • The last meal.

• 44:18 - Lily touches Imanes foot

• 46:40 - "getting a dog was the best decision of my life

• 53:08 - My route is the comfy route

  • I don't like talking trash about anyone
    • if i'm opinionated, (say what you like) try to do in a way
      • i put myself in their shoes
    • if i
      • saw myself being talked about
        • in a nother pod
      • like the way i'm talking about them
    • how would it make me feel
      • usually
    • i wanted to be treated respectfully
      • talked about respectfully as well
    • that's what i like
      • how i see
    • usually
      • usually like 8 times
    • i'll go the nice, nicer route
      • route i suppose anxious laughter
    • i don't want to be harsh towards me,
      • so i don't be harsh towards them
  • imane - me, i am extremely harsh on myself, so i'm harsh on everyone else #public_perception
    • that is so fair and valid!! #idealization
      • accidentally opinionated
        • you know what i mean?
      • i am a react andy
        • through and through
      • reflexive
        • #Pied_Piper
      • birthday dinner
        • *Lily #Jossle
          • lily gets excited
      • more so normies
        • none of them were streamers
      • someone said something
        • ha
      • oh my god your reaction?!
    • hahahaha
      • persecution
        • expressive
      • oops
        • i forget
      • it's almost like
        • i forget to turn it off
      • that's how i'm built #at_this_point
        • #persecution
      • ==at this point, i have no idea how idea how to get out of this==
    • #delusive #Pied_Piper #instrument #imaneanys #imanelily
    • #imanelilyaria
      • i go about judgmental
      • tone isn't very warm
        • it's because i view myself harshly, so i view others harshly
          • even when i express my self a bit harsher
        • even when i recieve backlash
          • see and read those opinions and agree
        • never express yourself
          • you never give people to relate to or express to
  • #Lily #Development #Instrument
    • devalue #Public_Relation ==lily chose this question intentionally forcing her hand, making imane suck up to her #consent==
      • sometimes i dont say things because i dont want them to feel bad
      • could help to just like, y'know i - i- i- i- i-
        • a balance
          • of both
            • is
              • probably
                • the best
        • balance
        • balance
        • balance
          • too afraid to be yourself
          • you dont want
        • should could
      • i am at peace
      • so many takes
      • if i didn't know you
        • i would connect with you way more
          • political takes spicy #Consent_Violation #Random_Viewer_Question #Lilyfication #Pied_Piper
        • 52:29 ==lily chooses question to spiral imane to the delusive idea that lily is perfect and her image is ideal, and has many good takes. somehow her takes are spicy and political==
          • ==this is done so to tie the delulu of it all back using imane as an instrument. the politics is the Steven, my original project selecting 3. Steven, Imane, Lily. Lily is holding Imane hostage via 1. Imane's base image problems relative to her condition 2. Lily's fact of existence as an instrument to her, "Years Of Service," History. There's layers her mind can't comprehend, so she's not going to stand up for herself, even though, throughout the pod she views herself as very assertive and direct. A girl who stands up for herself. The incongruency is Lily, and her determination to use Imane as a magical instrument to create False Promises, split boys, keep boys in the dark. Motive is because Lily gives the illusion of love for a delusive Imane. The history makes sense on a superficial level, in person.
          • #Consent #Refusal
        • Lily refuses Imane's image, the way she sees herself, as an assertive and strong woman, and she violates her consent. She ultimately refuses to like Lily, because Lily wants Imane to never speak her mind, ever. Lily understands the persecution and Imane's delusive state, so she uses her as an instrument to get her way. Imane sucks up to her, in fear? She's persecuted of "the tunnels," "the words are secret." ==The Vault if you will== She's afraid to not suck up to Lily and call her amazing, a false promise for the audience. The pied piper, Lily, is creating the false promises to her new children, the audience.

#Circling + #Voyeur_Kink + #Scat + #Bathroom + #Hair #sex_trip #sex_telegraph

• Poop Fetish.
  • Lily's watching Jaimie in her own house.
    • Jaimie off handed joke, randomly about eating diarrhea
      • :07 - "Ok." -> Pouts lips, -> "What"
        • …Fresh out the ass.
          • Pouts lips again
      • What or Ok? Huh?
        • *lily covers her face in disbelief
        • gets all giddy like a schoolgirl priming - premeditating - sex trip
        • gets up all smiley and excited
      • Lily joins her "You love eating what?"
        • ambushed
          • i…
            • you didn't hear anything
          • what are you making
        • #Circling behind
          • subtle
        • #Playing_With_Hair #Hair_Flick
          • circling bacxk
            • listen
              • i was watching oyu make food
                • ok
              • right
                • ok
              • i was like ok
                • i was watching you bblogs on my stream
              • you're live
              • so oh ok
                • let me visit her stream
              • what she's up to guys
            • mmmm
              • yeah
            • diarrhea
              • i love eating diarheaa
            • laughs
              • twirls
            • behind
              • jostles
            • infatuated, twirling hair twirling
          • schoolgirl, diarrhea

#Rational #Rape #Convience #Lazy

• She was really close to me.
  • I was right there.
    • So yeah, I stared at them, sue me
      • it's not my fault
    • bing chilling
      • they were good boobs
        • I appreciate my friend's boobs ok
      • fixation
        • nice tits i'm going to tell them ==sounds like a man==
          • you have really nice tits
        • it's fine
          • it's a compliment
        • you know like, i appreciate how they look
      • you have a really figure

Lily watching Jaimie cook, Jaime talks about eating shit. Lily comes to join in. Circles on approach, circles behind. Really interested about how what she just said. Also uses Daniel's toilet not hers, when it's right there.

Sexualizing Imane mid sentence, what's so funny? Another cum interjection, cock, jizz etc. Ball hold, just say it Michael: you want to fuck Imane.

Furious Fish = Destiny is pregnant with Sym. Must climb out of a million layers of platforms to get imane.

Platforms also theme in The Cascades a story Lily resonates so much with, corruption is cool. Climb those platforms, maybe one day you'll see the light, and Imane. Probably not though, she's delusional, and have her under my thumb. Like an ironfist. I am the author, and no one else. I am the artist, and no one else. *gulps Toast cum* MICHAEL! MICHAEL! MICHAEL!

Just like rewrite stars, Destiny is the default. You will never have imane. You're stuck in the womb, and Destiny is trying to climb out. Either way you're both stuck at the bottom. BLUBSTINY am i right? BLUB BLUB BLUB I LOVE STEVEN SOOOOOOOOO MUCH BLUB BLUB BLUB BLUB PREGNANT FISH LOL

43:06 - Lily is on the panel for the trivia game, for some reason. They never talk, really. Some texts, maybe. That's intimacy for Lily, it's good enough to string her along. It's an upgrade. I can't generate for wealth for her, but Steven can. Persist in a game, easy money, one way or another. Easy influence one way or another. Parasitic.